On Thursday 4th September at 19:56 I made the decision to start this website. To document my journey from the old me to the new.
Sitting on the floor just out side my kids bedrooms having just read them their bedside story my thoughts began to turn to my 50th birthday. For the record my 50th is in 633 days 4 hours and 4 minutes (or was when I decided to build this site).
I remember when I first noticed I was fat, I was 11 years old. Secondary school is a cruel place to be when you’re one of only a handful of fat kids in a school of nine hundred. It was in the late 80s when there were no safe spaces, school counsellors and all the other soft shit we have today.
I remember that night amazingly clearly considering it was 37 year ago give or take. Not a day has gone by since when I haven’t thought about my weight.
I spent most of it believing as many do that I simply need to burn off more calories and I consume, to eat less and exercise more. As I will explain in another article I’m not sure I could have exercised anymore. My problem has always been food. I’m an emotional eater and even when I stumbled on low carb I still didn’t get the results I wanted.
Over the last few years I have found a way of eating that is both nutritious and allows me to effortlessly lose weight. The problem is at some point life gets in the way. Most recently my family have been moving house. As the father I did most of the legal work and a lot of the heavy lifting. Stress was high and I kind of gave up on what worked. Bread and wraps in particular sneaked in and up went my weight again.
Over the last few years I have lost weight and like many gained it back. I am still 50 lbs less than at my peak back in 2018 but still not the sub 200lbs that someone of my height should be. Emotional issues always take over and food is how I handle those emotions.
Now we have moved to a house we own I have been able to set up my environment in a much better way. Owning our home is a huge step towards the security that I have always craved. Now we are in and settled it seems like the right time to pull it all together. To live the life and to release the me that has always been hiding beneath the layers of fat.
This site will track my progress, allow me to talk about my experience of weight loss over the last four decades and hopefully what I eventually did to beat it. I’ve got 633 days to sort myself out.
I hope you enjoy the site, but more than that I hope my experiences of the last four decades help you overcome your own weight loss challenge.